Wow. 90 days sober. I was trying to find a picture to compare, Drunk me vs. Sober me. While there were A LOT of pictures of me drunk, I realized none of them showed my truth. The true alcoholic I hid from pictures; she was sad, ashamed and alone. With that said I also realized the 'before me' doesn't matter anymore. What matters now is so much bigger than the memory of what I once was.
What I am NOW? I am 90 days sober, I am happy and I am healthy. I've lost 20lbs and a lot of baggage. It's not all candy and flowers, I am not 'cured'. I have hard days. I get sad, I have anxiety and insomnia. I am human. But now I have the tools to combat this without drinking. I wake up refreshed (seriously 7:45 Aubree), and unashamed of the 30 yr old woman I see in the mirror in the morning. I'm changing before my eyes; physically, emotionally, spiritually, and I couldn't be prouder.
I couldn't have done it without AA, my sponsor, the fellowship and my support system of amazing family and friends. If you have a problem with Alcohol and you need help, call/text/message me, I'll take you to your first meeting, it won't be easy but you don't have to do it alone.
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