Meditation, Reflection and Gratitude

Today’s meditation and reflections were very fitting for me today.  I’m embracing living my life in the NOW and doing so joyfully. I carry such appreciation in my heart for the rooms of AA, the incredibly supportive fellowship, my friends and especially for my sponsor. I know in my heart I can trust this beautiful woman with anything and she will without any hesitation be there for me. Day after day it is shown to me that I am exactly where I need to be and I am filled with an overwhelming amount of gratitude.

As if my day hadn’t already had me filled with joy, I received a message that sent me over the top. I have been reconnecting lately with a great friend I’ve known for 9+ years now. We have seen each other through some our worst days drinking and then some. I have moved out of state, out of the country, all over the state of Colorado and have somehow not lost touch with her. She is my E, I can call on her for anything. We had lunch the other day and were reminiscing on the ‘old days’ and this brought up conversation around an old mutual friend of ours. He used to party with us, hard, had real highs and lows with DUI’s & jail time as a direct result of his alcohol and drug abuse.  In our reflection we realized we hadn't heard from him in a while… and based on his history of abuse this concerned us. Today we got word that he is in treatment and participating in a intense CA program. This is HUGE. Never before has he been willing to take this step. E spoke to him on the phone today, he sounds good and hopeful. She  told him of my recent sobriety and progress with AA. He said he was proud of me and that it gave him hope. To be able to give HOPE to someone I care for fighting for their life in treatment is such a humbling thing.

I’m blown away by how different my life has become in such a short period of time. People are genuinely proud of me, to see the progress I am making and feel blessed to be a part of my life. That love, compassion and understanding from those who share in my life is more than I deserve and I will forever be eternally grateful.